// The Door’s Wide Open //

Two Wednesdays ago, I sent off this new ring so it could fit my tiny hands; it was this same day that I asked the Lord to do the same to me.  I never realized how many “bandaids” I had placed over the wounds on my heart. For years, I walked around unhealed and barely whole. I was covering up the fact that people had hurt my heart rather than stating the truth. During the two weeks that my ring would be gone, God emptied his bottle of peroxide and cleansed me from the inside-out.

I could barely sleep last night. Not only did my ring arrive earlier than expected, but for the first time in a very long time, I felt whole. I woke up this morning with no expectations. I glanced in the mirror and saw a confident person staring back at me. I held my head a bit higher than usual today. I felt every ounce of my being shining the joy of the Lord. I remember having a vision back when all of this had started in the summer of 2010. I saw a door that had locks covering the whole door. After months of trying to figure out what this vision had to do with me, the Lord spoke to me quietly- “Only one key will unlock all of these locks.” I think I’ve found my key.


Today is the start of the new person that the Lord has allowed me to become. My door has flung open; I’m not looking back. <3

// Never Forgotten //

I hate the feeling of loneliness simply because one is never alone. You can have absolutely no friends surrounding your every day life and still not be considered lonely. Over the past two years, the enemy has triggered these feelings inside of me with the lack of close friends in my life. I’ve experienced back-stabs, rumors, being left out; everything but loyalty. In all that my eyes have seen, loneliness is not one of them. I am never forgotten by the Lord.

Friends come and friends go, but the Lord will always prove Himself loyal. And when times get tough, He will bring along people (or just one) to help you through the mud that you’re stuck in and stay by your side forever-you matter that much to Him. I wrote a poem back in 2009 about being in the presence of God; to this day, I read it when I’m weak. Why? Because I may be walking a very narrow road, but I know that somewhere and somehow, I’ll reach a valley so I can run. <3

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I sit on a rainbow, looking toward the sky,


Asking question after question, because I always wonder “why?”.



He sits right next to me, hands in our lap.


As His words came out, my tears unwrapped.



He told me secrets I never knew


And showed me hardships I broke through.



And with every question I had to ask,


He answered simply, revealing no mask.



Looked into my eyes, a unique shade of blue,


And said four words, “Because I love you.”



—Jeorgi Smith. 11/19/09

// All Things New //

The past 19 months of my life have been nothing but a mesh of up and down roller coasters. Friendships, trials, good and bad memories-I’m sure there’s a collage somewhere in my room. A majority of my emotions and thoughts have been the same since the fall of 2010 and I didn’t realize it until the Lord spoke to me this past Monday. I felt like I was in a forest where the sun was always high in the sky allowing me to catch every bit of its heat waves. I’ve missed the beauty of sunsets.

On Monday, the Lord spoke to me in the busyness of my day- “It’s a new season.” One after the other, things began to happen. My temporary purity ring snapped in half. I lost my favorite and only pair of sunglasses. My phone lost all of my text messages between friends. My mirror reminded me of how much make-up I was wearing. My car had immediate needs. Boom; boom; BOOM. I knew exactly what the Lord was saying. All of the things that were lost/broken that day were all gained at the same time. All of these things listed above were replacements and things that I grew adjusted to. They were all linked to the hopes and desires and fears that I used to hold.

My God is the God of the new. I am a new creation in Him everyday and because of this it’s time for me to open my eyes to the new things He’s stirring up. I’m tired of watching the sun sit still in the sky; I’m ready to see the old sun set and the new one rise! As of this week, all of the things I listed above have been redeemed with the new; I have never felt so relieved to see a new season arise.

So what does this new person inside of me look like? To be honest, I’m not quite sure. But what I do know is this: that she will be looking ahead and not holding onto hopes of the past. If everything happens for a reason, then I can look away from my past with a smile. I have no room for my comfort box; I’m stepping out and testing the unknown with faith. I am a NEW creation.

(Jeorgi Anna Smith)

// No Words//

Father God, 

I have absolutely no words to say when it comes to describing you. When I say your name, everything from my mind drifts away like the breeze and, somehow, a smile appears to my face. What you are to me could NEVER be replaced; you are my… . everything. I love you.

(Jeorgi Anna Smith)  

// He IS Righteousness //

Psalm 145:17- 

“The Lord is righteous in all his ways

and loving toward all he has made. “

God IS righteousness. That means whatever He tells you to do is part of His righteous plan for your life. Don’t take what He says for granted. Write it down, say it out loud; remind yourself of the promises everyday. The Lord only wants what’s best for you-and that’s righteousness. 

(Jeorgi Anna Smith) 
 

// Spring Cleaning :) //

Today I: 

-Cleared my mind

-Cleaned my car

-Cleaned my room

-Washed my clothes 

-Re-organized my closet

-Cleaned my house 

… . And then I realized it  was spring. I guess it’s safe to say that my mind automatically tells me when it’s time for spring cleaning! 

// Sing it Out //

Sometimes, I wish that there was a coffee shop where everyone had the freedom to pop in their headphones and sing out worship songs. Not only would people not be paying attention to you, think about how beautiful that sound would be to the Lord. 

If such a place ever existed, I would dwell there every moment of my day. Take me there now. <3 

// Sunshine <3//

The day off. Beautiful weather. Augustana playing in my ears. The sound of my keys clicking away. Sounds like a perfect day to work on my book. :)

// Saved by Grace//

At 4:03PM today, I found myself breathing deeply with a quickly beating heart. “Is this really happening?”, I thought to myself. Sure enough, I was being pulled over for speeding-which has yet to happen to me… until today, that is. 

“Ma’am, do you know why I am pulling you over?”
*palms shaking* “No sir, I don’t.”
“Ma’am, you do realize the speed limit is 35mph, right?”

I’m surprised I didn’t fall to my knees right then. I grabbed my wallet and the required items that he asked for as I prayed under my breath that God would save me from my mistake. I am a good driver. In my five years of driving,I have yet to be pulled over. As the cop was in his car behind me, I was thinking about how the Lord does this with us. I had absolutely no idea I was speeding. In my eyes, the speed limit was the speed I was going, but I quickly learned that I was mistaken.

In our eyes, we don’t recognize sin. In God’s eyes, we can’t stop sinning. It’s our human nature to be drawn to sin, and it’s God’s job (as our Father) to keep us in check. By the grace of God, I am free from not only a speeding ticket, but also by my daily sins that I unintentionally do. And with that, I fall to my knees.

(Jeorgi Anna Smith)  

// Don’t Get Stuck//

Sometimes we can take our eyes off the promise land. We grow weak in the waiting season that we fail to believe that the Lord will actually do as He said. But we don’t live by what we see-we live by faith. 

(Jeorgi Anna Smith)